Johnny Payne Libri

The papers call me “the gentleman killer.” I wrapped the throat of my first victim in the silk scarf with which I strangled her. That’s what passes as a gentleman these days. I ask How do you reconcile a man who is capable of deep, tender love (because I’ve felt it), a man, who—by public standards—is a health reformer, assistant to the future British Prime Minister ,and the son-in-law of a wealthy industrialist, but who, when the moment overtakes him, kills women? I don’t know what to make of it myself, but that’s me. I’ve been told I have a philosopher’s mind, that I’m ambitious and can do anything I set my mind to—but sometimes my sadomasochistic tendencies get the better of me. I don’t venture judgement—on myself or anyone else. I’ll leave that up to you. My name is Kilcairn, and these are my confessions.

The narrative follows Étienne D'Abattoir, a romantic writer with a passion for French poetry, as he embarks on a journey across diverse cities including Paris, Dubrovnik, and Buenos Aires. His travels reveal a blend of wit and introspection, exploring the complexities of his surroundings and relationships. As a reluctant assassin, his character grapples with the tension between tenderness and ruthlessness, providing a unique perspective on the world he navigates.